unity in some dance steps

Where the hell is matt?

Word Up

Where's my def?

Someone promised me a proper definition, in the course of the now ending year. But there's no sight of it, is there?
So i'm begging for the promised commentary for this days Please

How sad it is! I shall grow old, and horrid, and dreadful. But this picture will remain always young. It will never be older than this particular day of June. . . . If it was only the other way! If it was I who were to be always young, and the picture that were to grow old! For this–for this–I would give everything! Yes, there is nothing in the whole world I would not give!

Said Dorian Gray upon viewing for the first time the portrait Basel drew of him.

 

I saw two movies today, for the first time, that I'm rather found of. The first was the comedy "The invention of Lying" followed to conclude "Dorian Gray". They are truly different and I don't have the silliest clue concerning to the why of the choice to see the two of them in the same day. I can only guess it was fate or something in like of those lines.

I can't go about the movies because the hour is running late, but I'll say this… It's not a waste of time watching any of these movies in fact I'll go even further and say I advertise the viewing of those two movies. So do what you can to see them.

Roses with thorns

They are good girls, all of them.

And all the bad want to break their hearts, spirits and/or body's. And it's depressing, said clearly and without any other meaning…

They've grown too much, but are still too young. And some make them face the consequences of the beauty of all that, deflowering their innocence and bring them pain…

It's not fair,

That every one of them have to face the monster in their wishing princess fairy tale, and there's no prince or white knight to save them from their nightmares.

There's no really any excuse!

Even more because the monsters that come to haunt them where invited in like we welcome a bouquet of roses,

Forgetting the thrones.

To everyone,

Of you,

Who

Are

Strangely stupid enough not to get where I intend to reach,

I'll say it all in a better way,

A clearer way.

If you fuckers hurt them anyway, don't mind your back…

Because I like punching in the face.

In hopes of a better world all together;

John SCAR Kramer of Lioncourt

P.S.: It's not publicity, I'm so tired of hearing unhappy stories that I'm just fed up.

OhOhOh..

I'm don't like Christmas.

Growing up, every 24th of December my family would gather to celebrate Christmas.

We don't anymore.

Christmas is about the celebration of Christ's birth. It's about religion.

Well,i do not follow any religion for that matter so I feel like it would be actually kind of hiprocate to celebrate it.

Nevertheless, we all know Christmas meaning as completely changed into something else. Now it's about gifts..And I don't despite that. There is nothing wrong in wanting to give nice things to the people we love; what I find absoletely repellant is how people are lead to feel like they must offer stuff to everyone.It's not even about their beloveds anymore.

Consumerism as taken over many parts of human's life. Religion is not an exception.

I refuse to get swallow by nowadays Christmas, just because everyone else is. I choose to be different. I choose to follow my beliefs.

Merry Christmas

btw, i HATE christmas songs!

Rain in Jerusalem

It's raining… it's the first hour of the eve of the presumably birth of THE SAVIOR and the skies don't show the sparkling beauty of diamond sky. All I see is a harmonic rumbling on the floor, almost a timer, "drop drop drop drop drop"… microseconds between them, and then a whisper wind whistling in a harmonic tone, and a shout of a thunder that covers all others for a micro frame. If I were a Pagan I would say that Poseidon decided to unite the land with the sea…

How ironic that in the eve of the day we celebrate reunion between people and love to all kind, the skies greet us with such a heavy melody?

"It's just the weather!" you say, and right reasonable answer, no one can object such educated observation, congrats…

The weather… think about it; millions of millions of little beings, cells, or atoms, nuclear bits that make as a whole synchronized motion the rain, the clouds and the sunny day. They are so little compared to us and still they make us change our way of living with just a simple shift from cloudy to rainy, from windy to a breezy afternoon.

And today, a day of celebration for us and they decided it should rain…

As I'm standing in my room, typing this little words and, look outside, to the falling water and the chilling wind. I can only think of the free spirit of the water and of all its components, and the lucky feeling I have for the fact I'm just witness to the rain, thunder and wind, rather than a prop in its spectacle.

The world isn't fair… and it won't be even after today, although we'd loved that.

Christ was born 2009 years ago to save us, and so we believe he did… but he didn't throw money to the poor and hungry. He hoped, instead, to unite the humans to the belief that we're all the same and all different just like all the rain drops.

After all the bad weather isn't as bad as we say, it's here, this day , to remind us that we all come from the same, all of us were born, and all of us will end on the ground, no matter how much wind or lightning we get on our way, all symphonies have a beginning and an end.


Think about it;
John Scar Kramer of Lioncourt
P.S.: Enjoy Christmas as much as you possibly can, it's worth it

The thingy that comes after whatever happend

It's been a week since last we said something worth reading. Some recent events and the business of the scholar schedule made things so…

But not only that, for not even death will stop the three fablers that author this bit map, what kept me, at least for me, was the sense that I lacked the touch to write the right words at the right time. And as I write tonight I only wish and hope that no unwanted interpretation can be taken from these static words and that in their stiffness they do not represent a pain to those who read them.

But what I wanted to address is not the lack of muses of your dears, but something that I've learned in the process of this week.

As I've grown I developed ideas, one of them was about friendship… In my thirteenth year of life I developed a theory that friends were an overrated good by society in general, "there's no need for friends, in order to live and live well", I would say to my classmates and anyone who annoyed me enough. I thought that Friends were only known beggars that would come to you asking for free advices and loans without interest, so I did not, in the due time, train myself with the abilities to really relate or deal with others like normal people usually do as they grow up.

Only this week has I missed the contact of my friends did I learn that giving isn't the worst part in a friendship, quite the opposite, it's the best. Every time we meet I give them my stories as they give me theirs, we also exchange advises and opinions in the safe and pure environment of friendly laughs. So in what I learn is that the experience of giving is best.

And to conclude this strangely arranged thingy here's a thought:

"Friendship is like wetting your pants;

Everyone can see it;

But only you can feel its warmth"

 

Have a Jolly Good Christmas.

John Scar of Lioncourt

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Memories come memories are, let the past remember who you would be, let the present present you with what you are and let the future haunt what you can become

we'll be foreveryoung

It's not the first time one of us posts this music, and it shall not be the last. Because although we know about the end, there's also the belief that eternity lies ahead

We are here

[despite what for..]

CrappyMusicMoment

Spill out my heart...
But you don't hear a word...
Cause your busy thinking 'bout how long 'til it's your turn...
So you can go on and on, about yourself
Go on and on, about yourself...
And my heart can go back on the shelve...
and go on and on, about yourself...

But it's not all about you,
all about you,
the more you speak the less I care about
you, you, you, YOU!!!
It's not all about you, the world turns without you!
The more you speak, the less I care about you, you, you!!

Whatever I do, you've already done...
Only you've done it better and way before anyone...
Cause you think, that it's some game to win
You think, that it's some game to win...
Accomplishments and places been...
You think, that it's some game to win...

But its not all about you,
all about you,
the more you speak the less I care about
you, you, you, YOU!!!
Its not all about you, the world turns without you!
The more you speak, the less I care about you, you, you, you!!
Care about you, you, YOU!!!

Go on and on and on about yourself...
Go on and on and on about yourself...
The places that you go...
The places that you've been...
Why can't you say no one cares about you...

Its not all about You!
the more you speak the less I care about
you, you, you, YOU!!!
Its not all about you, the world turns without you!
The more you speak, the less I care about you, you, you, you!!
Care about YOU!!!!!!!!

CrappyMusicMoment

James Morrison feat Nelly Furtado - Broken Strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
A lie is worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late,too late

...

see this properlly i'll write about it later

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GaDQDqLE3eA

Please listen to the instruction and be open to the suggestions it gives i'll comment on it sunday

We keep trying..

Calvin and I felt like we didn't fit in. But we definitely turned the game around.

Yesterday was the day. As you all know, academic life means, among other things, socializing parties every now and then. Well, last night was one of these. It included dinner and a lot of fun.

Of course when we arrived, it was awkward. Neither of us has made huge friendships among computer science students so far which meant just waiting for dinner. But few litters of beer later, we had fun! I manage to meet some nice (?) people and I am happy, for now anyway.

So my thirst was killed.

[Life is good I can't complain...]

Re-borning..?Kind Of

Every now and then we people break down.

I believe it only happens so, so we keep fighting. So we keep pursuing our goals. So we keep wanting to do it so.

We get lost for a moment so we don't loose ourselves for good.

Ironic, don't you think?

3..2..1 Hackers (1995)

(btw, Angelina is HOT, not only because well she's HOT, but because she KNOWS!)
Geek is SO [the new] sexy!

Moon (2009)

What a dinner..

It was weird.

I was really thrilled to go to this dinner..I was excited because I hadn't seen the host for a while then and I really like her!!..I guess I missed her, which surprises me because i'm not that close to her.

When we all got there, I was told only three out of the twelve were not studying medicine.

Then, suddenly, i felt weird. It was like this mix of feeling surfing on my veins.

There is this physics theory that says, among other things, there are others universes that went on according to the decisions we never made in this one. For example, there is a universe in which i didn't went to Coimbra last year.

Well, I felt like i have just got to this other dimension which aloud me to see what would have been If i hadn't changed my mind about going to med school.

And dude, it's weird assisting to what your life could have been.

I don't regret my decision.Not yet anyway. But I can't help it to wonder wether is was a right choice or a wrong one waiting for the worst moment to reveal itself..

[after all, to mess with our heads there is, not only karma, but also Murphy's Laws]

But for a spit second...

The One.

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

...

No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like, what it's like

...

Welcome to my life...

emotionally unavaiable

May this be the only reason i hear someone say "emotionally unavailable"

Multiboot

Doing what i believe is the right thing makes me sleep just fine.

Doing what i know is wrong keeps me awake.

Doing what I don't know weather is right or wrong shuts me down.

Lay misery upon

I know it goes against the Christian ideals but sometimes a lesson has to be taught or a scare must be given. For those that are at this moment planning to make someone rich in terms of misery, I suggest you stop your line of thought and just listen to me for a while.

People in general already feel miserable for themselves, just because they're alive. And it is in your intention to make that feeling pierce even more through their heart, isn't it?

I hope you consider the target's position in its emotional life, because if you go ahead and go through with this misery mission without taking that into account, you may well be the one pushing it towards suicide. It is really important that you be very knowledge of this, before plotting your little revenge.

Now listen closely,

    For this is one deadly poison I'm about to talk to you about.

For the sake of comprehension let's give your target an innocent name, so whenever I say piggy I mean "your target"

When you wish upon emotional misery upon piggy, there's one thing only you shall target, that is, its pride. But you shall not break it or trash, because that gives piggy someone to blame and to go after. It's better if you take piggy's pride, and then give it back in a way that it will be piggy that eventually breaks it.

This isn't an easy thing to accomplish and it is different with every case. But I'm open to give some guide if it is someone's wish.

John Scar Kramer of Lioncourt

Fireflies

Goals

Some people come to me from time to time to ask a simple question "what's your goal?".

For a long time I did not have an answer, now I have two…

After being questioned time and time again I decided to take a moment and think about the goals for my life. After a while I got the perfect answer, which satisfies my needs and hopefully your curiosity.

So my goals are the following:

Goal nº1: Live forever

Goal nº2: If it is proven that goal nº1 won't be reached, die.

Simple and syntactic.

Having these two goals give me the possibility to tag any other goal, as pointless and a waste of time.

Because if I live forever time will eventually change the everything and everything will change with time. And if I don't live forever, that means I'll die, turning once more, any other goal, to a pointless hiccup on my death bed.

Goals are good for you… not for me

John of Lioncourt

Friends..friends..whatever..son of bitches

I hate this feeling.

Generally speaking, i think i am a good friend.

[i may get there a little late sometimes but never out of choice..]

It takes a lot for me to call someone a friend, specially with a capital F.

Those are the people I love, people i feel i would pretty much do anything for. People i would go against my own principles to save their lives for..

They matter.

I believe in many things.

I believe friends should always support friends. I believe they must be honest and speak their mind, but that they should accept others choices.

What really bugs me, is when I feel I don't know what to feel.

Should I feel this away? Why don't I feel that way?

When a friends act childish and end up hurting other people, where should I stand?

Honesty. Maturity. They're key-points to me.

But when a friend of mine reveals none, do I support him, anyway? Am I able to love someone I totally disagree with on most times?Am I able to entirely accept their actions, even If I TOTALLY disagree with them?

I get confused..But then the bigger me raise upon.

For me, loving is wishing the best;that is the best gift I can give someone.

[not that i want random people to get fucked up in life..]

Bottom line, I want my friends to be happy, even if that means going separate ways. Even if that means that somewhere down the line I won't love them anymore, that we won't be friends anymore.

We are, not only what we are right now, but a result of what we once were and therefor we owe ourselves to be faithful to our feelings, even if these do no longer apply.

So,I am who I am with the conscious that if I am ever needed for, if i ever feel i have to, i'll stand up for them. I'll speak for them, and hell, i'll even justify their attitudes to the world.

Black books lock out

“Man can believe the impossible, but can never believe the improbable”

Oscar Wilde

I gotta a feeling..

Today was a good day. It was a normal day.

I am NOT a positivist. That was not the way I grew up to be. It isn't good, it isn't bad..It's all about perspectives.

Unlike what it would be expected, i tend not to make a big deal out of nothing which means I often feel like my days suck. When I don't, i feel stupidly happy.

The thing about today was I felt balanced. My day had its ups and downs and I feel ok about it. I feel peaceful. I feel balanced.

It actually made me wonder if that was how to be normal feels like.

Today there was no light at the end of the tunnel.There was no tunnel.I was just out there, wide in the open.

I do realize that me expressing my "joy" it is probably going to ruin it.But i don't care

.I feel I must say i out loud. Especially to my beloved ones.

Today I have hope. Even tough i now this won't last for ever, it makes me wanna pursue the best version on me.

Deep down, i'm just a EP waiting to be produced into a CD..

CrappyMusicMoment

Haven't you ever heard a music you though it was being singing to you??

Well, I'm just waiting for that awkward moment in which someone is telling me those exact words..

(i guess Justin was thinking about me when he wrote it..)

You might've been hurt, babe
That ain't no lie
You've seen them all come and go, oh..
I remember you told me
That it made you believe in
No man, no cry
Maybe that's why

Every little thing I do
Never seems enough for you
You don't wanna lose it again
But I'm not like them
Baby, when you finally,
Get to love somebody
Guess what,
It's gonna be me...

(...)

You've got no choice, babe
I've got to move on, and you know
There ain't no time to waste
You're just too blind (too blind), too see
But in the end, ya know it's gonna be me
You can't deny
So just tell me why

(...)

There comes a day
When I'll be the one, you'll see..
It's gonna-gonna-gonna-gonna-gonna

It's gonna be me

All that I do
Is not enough for you
Don't wanna lose it
But I'm not like that
When finally (finally)
You get to love
Guess what (guess what)

(...)

Because 1+1 isn’t 1

 

In Basic arithmetic's I learned that 1+1=2, as I think all of you did. But in Literature many authors made some mathematical magic and said that 1+1=1…

Never did I understood those illogical writers, growing up and how could I? Joining two pees, one and then the other always left me with two pees, and I can't tell you how much I wanted them to just be one. After many pees pair counting, I decided to give it a rest until a day that I could figure a away to truly say that one is false and the other one is true or that both are true.

And the moment came to me a few months ago… All I got to do is change everything.

I mean, I have to do like physicists and theoretical mathematicians do, break reality to an unreasonable sample of things, to reach the desired result, basically you cheat.

So I found that 1+1 ends up equaling to 1 in situations such as these:

• 1 ¹⁺¹ = 1
  
• (1+1)⁰=1
  
• (1+1)/(1+1)=1
  
• …
  

There are many others, but I think this may be sufficient to prove a point. That you can mold everything in your life to be whatever you wish it to be…

And to be truly in love you have to cheat…

What would you choose?

You can either be a dead hero or an alive coward..

My way to be thankful..

There is no better moment to decide to change things than after Thanksgiving's dinner.

It is, if anything, a holiday for reflexion.

In order to be thankful for something, you need to work things trough for a whole year..Something has to go right!! But instead of celebrating what went your way, why not noticing what didn't? I mean, why not thinking of all those things we could be thankful for and we're not?

In life we must search for THE balance.

And so I did.

The HO (ho! ho ho Jesus!!) in Ohio

Imdb gives it a 5.8 i say let's give ti a 7.
It's not a good movie, because it haas a poor script, poor acting, it seems like the story is incomplete, and Danny DeVito ends up being the gallant hero that literally fucks it all around.
But when you see it after a thanks giving dinner only with really not uptight  friends and closed age family, and then you join all for a good evening in front of the tv, looking for some laughs and embarrassing moments, this is a movie to consider
In the end... Fuck!

Death row is a state of mind...

Family ties…

Family will break you. There's little space for secrets when you come to a family retreat.

It's so funny, when you join twenty and something people with no resemblance other than the fact they share the same blood (by birth or marriage). You'll find yourself constantly in a social dance with no end in sight.

The kids play the games that we once played, the adults have the conversations we'll have in the future, as the and strong talk about the games they played, the conversations they'll have and the love that society keeps pulling away from them.

We sit at the dinner table, because there's no way better of keep all together and still. We group into the according age aggregates, and we talk… freeing ourselves of the censorship we have with a friend, we make jokes and do tricks, there's laughter in the menu accompanied of genuine laughter tears.

Secrets are unveiled in an unsecured manner; the only protection is really to lie… But why should you? In the end the dirt will be in everyone's hands, and the mud fight will be the funniest ever.

You'll learn to keep nothing hidden and give away all the shit, to keep the partners jealously crazy.

L.O.L.

Just...Laugh Out Loud

IT'S TRUE WHAT THEY SAY

I was never a believer...but I was wrong .

ONCE YOU GO MAC, YOU NEVER GO BACK!!!

CrappyMusicMoment

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,

And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand...





The angry boy,
a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain,
You know you don't belong,
You're the first to fight,
You're way too loud,
You're The flash of light,
on a burial shroud,
I know something's wrong,

Well everyone I know has got a reason,
to say,
put the past away,

(...)

And well he's on the table,
and he's gone to code,
And I do not think anyone knows,
What they are doing here,
And your friends have left you,
You've been dismissed.
I never thought it would come to this,
and I, I want you to know,
Everyone's got to face down the demons,
Maybe today,
We can put the past away,

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend.
You could cut ties with all the lies,
that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again,
I would understand,
I would understand,
I would understand...

(I would understand)
(I would understand)
(Understand)

very disturbing

Don't hope for a miracle... Make it happen!!

3.2.1

The word was GENIUS!





(i have the feeling Jack is going to love it..)

After friday

Son of Lies, chapter one. From 2009

Hi! My name is John,


The situation I'm in today, I have my ten years ago self to thank for. The fights I fought for the past 7 years and the ones I'm still preparing to face were declared upon me in a summer night.

Ten years ago I was a senior teenager, having a pleasant evening with some friends in the usual bar, I used to frequent at that time. Me and my friends, in a night like so many others, we talked about everything from, plans to politics, ethics and some gossip for the sake of argument. In that particular night, in the shuffle of several discussions, we somehow arrange to get to the topic of abortion and all its paradigms.

As a precedent pro-life believe, after getting nowhere with all the argumentation, I turned to the female assembly and said in this simple words: "In the chance you're pregnant, with an unwanted child, I beg of you to stand up through nine months of shame, and then for the sake of life let me take care of the poor unfortunate soul. I'll father the poor being, giving him all the satisfaction to any needs there will be."

Three years later, on the same bar but with a slightly different assembly. We gossiped about our lives and al its marvelous ups and downs. And this arrangement of complicated topic connections, one of the lady's present murmured about a past one night stand that could bring more than a night full of problems.

The assembly silence itself and the world seemed to stop for a while. All the focus was now on a possibly glowing star. And then someone popped the question "Did you make the test?" The lady busted into tears, like a little girl and said she was scared she wanted some friend to help her through the test. The group got closer to the little girl and comforted her, letting her cry, until there was no more pain, and fear to wash away, than there was the offer of something sweet to lift up the spirit, but she refused to give in to the enchantments of sugar.

It seemed the little girl had calmed down. And then there was this interview, with questions like "Have you told your parents?", "Do you know the guy's name?" and finally "What do you intend to do if it comes back positive?" The girl answered "no", "no" and "I don't know"

And then I took the last answer to reference my promise of three years before… But this time there was "in the chance", this time I was direct "I'll father this child…"

I remember my two best friends' faces, and at the time roommates, it seemed they didn't know whether to laugh or to worry for my sake. But I stayed the same, with the most serious face I've ever made staring at the speechless girl, surprised by a man that was set to keep his word.

DeWinter, one of my roommates, eventually killed the tension with a laugh, after rationalizing that I've must be joking. "What after all you're the gallant knight who will save the damsel in distress?"

"No" I replied turning to deWinter "I'm not going to save a damsel, I'm going to save an unfortunate soul from the clutches of death and its fiends" turned again to the girl "And I hope, you know, what comes if you decide to take that life you may possibly hold in you, the bloodstain you'll have in your hands for the rest of your life, the nightmares that will haunt you every time you close your eyes. I want you to think about that…" The girl was scared to death and the group, harassed me to make silence and speak no more… for the night was ruined and the party was over.

Everyone left except for me, Jack and deWinter (my roommates), the others accompanied the scared girl home as we stayed in silence and waited to pay the bill. When we were sure that everyone had left, deWinter stand up walked to me and… slapped me so hard that to this day I feel my cheek burning.

"How could you say something so awful to that poor girl?" She asked me, shouting for the whole world to hear how mad she was at me. "Why the need to scare her? She doesn't even know I she's in fact pregnant or not. You shouldn't have done that."

I looked at jack that still sited across the table, and kept silent watching as things developed, finally I answered "Cause and Consequence"

DeWinter was stunt and then she shouted "Cause and consequence? What the hell do you mean?"

"You always nag, about the fact that she never learns that actions have consequences in the end. What better chance than this one? Sometimes instead of nagging and complaining you have to take action, that's what I've done…"

"What if she's really pregnant? Will you face the consequences of your actions? Will you like you said Father the soul that in her?" Raised Jack from his long lasting silence.

"Yes, I will. I'll father him, take care of him, I'll raise him and educate him just like I promised"

"How? How will you do that? You're fresh out of college and you have no job, how will you be able to take care of this child?" Both of them asked, in a synchronized speech, almost like they've practiced it before.

"I have my savings, I'll get a job, and I'll ask for your help as well for my families. That surely will support my decision if I bring it up the right way"

"The right way? What do you mean the right way? You're going to lie, aren't you?" rationalized deWinter while we got up and head our way home. We thanked the bar staff, and wished them a good night, we resumed our debate only after leaving the building.

"Yes I'll lie if I need to." Jack then turned to me and said "Don't lie… there will be no need, we'll help you if they don't." then turning to deWinter he said "Won't we?" deWinter nodded after thinking for a few moments.

"Thanks guys" I said has we all came together to a group hug "But first things first, we have to know first if she's really pregnant, or if it is just a scare. Let's wait for the test results before getting the wells to turn. Will know soon enough what's to come, until then let's just enjoy the rest of the summer".

I followed Jack

"People who cease to believe in God or goodness altogether still believe in the devil. I don't know why. No, I do indeed know why. Evil is always possible. And goodness is eternally difficult."

Louis de Pointe du Lac

I followed jack's advice and arranged myself sometime to see the movie "The Mist". I'll jump the quality evaluation, to say that I cried in the end and I'll tell you why.

There's a lady in the roster of characters that pains my heart to hear speak. Her name is Mrs. Carmody, a middle-aged townswoman with a borderline reputation as a witch and an extreme belief in a bloodthirsty God.

Throughout the story line she preaches an adulterated word of the lord, miss quoting the bible's book of exodus, to explain the event and the monstrosity they are subjected to.

To educate some of you:

The exodus is the book from the Old Testament, and in it has the story of the Jewish people living in Egypt, as slaves. In this book lies the 10 commandments and the 10 plagues, a favorite of the bible freak fanatics and doomsday believer, such as Mrs. Carmody.

Many people confuse the plagues to be an act of punishment, but they weren't the plagues that haunted the Egyptian empire, happened to break the Jews from the chains of slavery.

In no part of the bible does God harm the human for the purpose of solely punish them, in fact God is always protecting from greater evils.

 

I understand that people's humanity would shatter into a million pieces and there would be desperate attempts to end the pain and suffering. And a bloodthirsty God is better than an unknown cloud of white smoke with strange beings inside. I just wish that weren't so…

As the ending goes, it reminds me of the burden to live in pain and the painless idea that death seams to portrait.

The reason I cried? The weakness of the humanity.

The Movies

I must have forgotten a dozen or so, but this ones are my all time favourites.
Please write your suggestions in the comment box and let's make a huge list of great movies!

• Beautiful Mind
• The Man From Earth (soooooooooooooooooo good!!!!)
• The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
• Fight Club
• Memento
• American Beauty
• American History X
• Wall-E (no it's not a joke, it's one of the best movies ever made)
  
• Inglorious Basterds
• Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
• Requiem for a Dream
• La vita è bella ('take life with a smile': the best advice I can ever give you)
  
• Gran Torino
• The Green Mile (John Coffey: People hurt the ones they love. That's how it is all around the world)
• The Wrestler
  
• Into the Wild ("happiness is only real when shared")
• Big Fish
• Crash (amazing!)
• Children of Men (long takes, just what I like!)
• Before the Sunrise
  

"Many years ago, Malcolm Forbes was asked what was the greatest single piece of luck, that he had in his life, and he said 'I chose the right parents'."

Forever young 3

"In our society, one thing that pops out, is how often we promise things and how often we don't stick with it... It's like its meaning has been changed into something else.
I don't know about you, but when I think of promises, I think of something that we swear to stand by, on our word"

DeWinter, SATURDAY, AUGUST 15, 2009,

In"You promised me"

 

Keeping what promised is a hard job, even more when we have in the promise sentence the word "forever", like when we said "no matter what we'll forever meet every week and keep in touch"

Thank God we're only young, for we'll learn that in the future forever is never so

Three shots

In live all we want is three shots;

We want a shot of luck, like wining big bucks at some casino game.

We want a shot at love, to love and date the sweetest sunshine.

And finally we want a shot of Tequila, to forget the downfall after losing all the luck and love.

And thus we live happily ever after

One of the best quotes ever:
"I'm willing to let you go so i get you back.."

One thing about being on the top of the world that is that it gives you a long way to fall..

That's what I'm afraid of the most. I don't want to became paranoid once i get there..

Few months ago, Ginger made me go to the cinema to watch this movie.
I wasn't supper happy about it but as the movie was going on, i wasn't hating as much as i though i would!

Well, all of that got killed to sun shine when this perfect guy with this perfect vision of love, falls for the girl with the dumbest vision of all...[well, at least one of the other couples got the real ending...]
Anyway..



The problem with fairy tales is that they set a girl up for disappointment. In real life, the prince goes of with the wrong princess..
Nevertheless, i stand by the philosophy that a man is a good thing to go home for but an even good thing to come home with. (as long as you realize it won't last forever.)

I AM SORRY [BTW, i feel it too]

Nothing turned out to be what we planned (again!!!)

We said we'd go to college and we'd meet again anytime we want, but that is just not happening.
I'm not happy about it. No way in the world I'll ever be happy about it. John and Jack are MY people and it sucks wanting to spend time with them and not being able to, sometimes because I'm just to tired to leave my house.

They are responsible for so many things going finally the way they should...i mean, if it wasn't for them i really don't know where i would be right now.
But, as much as they help me moving forward, they made me better. And now, i want better than i did a year ago.

I don't want to graduate. I want to be good, not only after it but until then. And that gets trained. I'm no genius and that is why I'm working harder than i ever did..because i actually believe my cause. Just like they taught me to.
Sometimes I just feel like I'm losing it...
I do not want to became this bitch who only cares about college and have no time for a simple coffee with her best friends. And as for me, i won't. [sorry i got closer and closer...]


But look at upside. It can only get better! It will be better.

Money money money...

Few days ago I've been asked what would I do if i won the lottery.
I'm totally against the concept of games like the lottery.

Things must be earned. Only people who succeed must be compensated.Working harder must pay off.
Well, humans got lazy over the time and i believe part of the reason why is people realized there are easy ways to get what usually takes effort..
Along with laziness, comes dumbness. They don't want to be smart, they don't want to succeed, they have no interesting in contributing for the evolution of their own specy.. all they want is wanting..and have it right away..
Money became the priority because it means you can have. Don't you thing is sad when you ask a four-years-old what he wants to do for a living, he says being rich??? I sourly do. But again, we let ourselves get here.
Betting every week in the lottery is a ritual of those who are just hoping for the easy way to live. But is that even living? Not working...not caring...just staying alive..but what's the point? you must have a purpose. Humanity have just lost sight of what is important...and that worries me.
Why giving millions of dollars to someone when are people who are actually starving to death? How did we let thing got to a place where there is enough money to solve life-death situations of thousands of people and we do nothing about it??

I do not want to win the lottery...More important, I don't want to want to win the lottery.
I wanna get in life where i deserve to, and that gets decided by the path i choose to go trough.I won't let my life be decided over LUCK.

Shouting out loud you won the lottery is NOTHING compared to whispering you got your own fortune...But people don't care about deserving anymore.They just want. They want this, they want that, and they want it the easy way. I guess Humanity is getting screwed up by humans themselves.And that frustrates me.

I'm sorry...

FQU

How can we dream of an united world when not even a small group of friends can unite themselves for coffee?

A man for all seasons

This is the greatest speech anyone could ever make against the evils of anarchy, we shall give the devil benefit of the law, for he is not a body of his own, but apart of us. and what's to say that when the last law is down we can stop him from raising and taking control in a devastated society. The law was made by men, for men to protect them of the evils that come of unsustainable freedom.

Praises to the law

John of Lioncourt

Forget chaos and focus on the silver lining

Life pulls you down from time to time, and although you don't like it, there's really nothing you can do about it.

You feel sad for yourself, and life loses meaning for a while, you lay down to calm yourself but you raise up to feel a world, who's weight is smothering you, you cry about the chronic pain your soul seems unable to sustain. Sometimes you even try to get up standing only on a momentous will you feel has you see others do so. But karma is always around us, and brings you right back down to tell you that you're not ready yet.

You may keep trying over and over again in the haste our society is known about, but all that does is feed placebo drugs to a wound that opens more and more at every fall. Until it grows so much that you can only succumb to it and fall into the deepest depression.

It's just painful, and there's no definite cure for it.

Your math may be the best, but you won't be able to ever compute the general solution. Everyone has a different set of variables, everyone corresponds to different theories and properties, in two people no reaction is the same. I can only say that this, in the end, will be an impossible to draw injective function (every object has a different image).

I can only live you with my empirical knowledge of how to handle the traps life sets on me.

When Life pulls me down from time to time, and although I don't like it, there's really nothing I can do about it. I try to forget for a while chaos and focus on the silver lining in between clouds.

But sometimes you just need the rest, peace and quiet.

John of Lioncourt

Life is suppose to be a holyday don't let a rainy day become a rainy eternity, trust me I know about it

2kn01

Well this comes as no surprise, but there's something of with it.

I now am officially the one with less empirical study of love and complementary stuff.

Jack and deWinter have been lucky to be granted the chance of experience whatever comes with love and complementary stuff. Living me happy for them and a bit sad for myself, how sad? Let's say if I had a ruler for every moment that I've been sad for myself sad, it would be something like this:

Diamonds and stuff:

________________________________________________________

Eight years being always second in the national rugby championship

____________________________________________________________________________

Empirical work on love and complementary stuff

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Hope that satisfies your need to know.

But if you're wondering how can I only be that sad, being love the greatest experience of the world and complementary stuff too

My answer is simple:

After eight years always being second I got used to the idea, so now I have the second greatest feeling in the world, which is being the fountain of rational thought and annexed stuff.

Yes!! My dear little bipsies now I'm the one they come for external advice, I'll be the one who will control their m… no that's not it, I'll be the one drawing the path that then they'll f… no! I'll be the vector of their li… no!

I quit if anyone needs me I'll be the one sitting in the bar with a bullet hole in foot and a Duffy hat drinking milk until I drawn.

Not finding a position of power in others life:

_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________(because the line is too long I'll just say "blah") BLAH

OH and P.S.: When i said complementary stuff i was actually talking about sex, but that's secret

the greatest phone call

Lies and crappy arguments

We've talked and talked about lovers and others. We destroyed fantasies and created new ones. But the truth is lovers don't shout out loud…No! lovers speak in secret and with tender gestures so that it doesn't run away

Hope

It will defeat you
Then teach you to get back up

Because you don’t
Always
Have to hold your head
Higher than your heart

Part IV – Changing times

Sometimes you have to listen
sometimes the truth ain’t good
sometimes you need to admit you’ve failed
sometimes you’re not as right as you should

That talk made me think
maybe I’m too quiet
maybe I’m dirty with the ink
of those who can’t stand to riot

I’ll try to be different
as I now see that is the right way
I’ll try not to be bent
and not to believe everything they say

The game that United a Country

Many times we've seen politics mixed with sport, some have great results others not so great. This time, it went well.

Can't wait for the movie...

Three in one: Stupidity, Spoiler and This is how you irritate people

Note: this post has a lot of information concerning a series that some of you may be fans of, to maintain your degree of surprise this following post has been censured by the author.

In last (spoiler)day's episode of (spoiler); (spoiler), (spoiler), (spoiler) and (spoiler) are going out to the (spoiler) to (spoiler). Has they're living (spoiler) they meet (spoiler), who's (spoiler) to have some (spoiler) over and (spoiler) the (spoiler).

(Spoiler) feels (spoiler) for (spoiler) not (spoiler) him and that (spoiler) doesn't want (spoiler) to be (spoiler) (spoiler)'s friends. (Spoiler) then goes and (spoiler) with (spoiler) to sort things out, end up arranging for (spoiler) to join (spoiler) and (spoiler)'s friends for next (spoiler)'s (spoiler).

Then (spoiler) engages in a (spoiler) to (spoiler) about (spoiler) and then be able to (spoiler) with (spoiler) and (spoiler)'s friends.

Then there are tens minutes of pointless second story remarks.

But when (spoiler) is in (spoiler)'s house with (spoiler)'s friends, (spoiler) the (spoiler) (spoiler),
(spoiler) talked too much instead of (spoiler) like (spoiler) and used long (spoiler) to describe simple (spoiler) of the (spoiler).

In the end (spoiler) ended up looking like stupid instead the (spoiler) the (spoiler) series portrait him to be.

So this goes to show what I've been saying that being (spoiler) or (spoiler) doesn't depend of what you do, think or say, but how they judge you.

John Scar Kramer of Lioncourt

Proving that being a (spoiler) isn't only up to you.

Still about utopias

We've gather around to create the perfect world, we couldn't agree in one single world so we created three...

So we have our goals, but we still don't know how to get there. Everything is so beautiful when is only an idea, but ideas don't get done by themselves, we have to make them happen.

My part is portrait by the teacher here... I get a good night sleep, I eat a hearty breakfast, I show up (on time) and I pass the buck to you...

But I won't just sit back... for i'm with you all the away, to help in what is your need...

Starting with remembering you of times when everything was possible and bring them back.

John Scar Kramer of Lioncourt,
at your service.

(In search of never land)

John Scar Kramer of Lioncourt.

My name is all I've got, and even it is a product of imagination and plagiarism. But that's not who I am, I'm a self tutored student in search of an interesting master, I wish to create an utopia for my homeland and live in the arms of the mother of all addictions. My behavior is somehow eccentrically in control. I'm the judge the layers all at once, in a court house where the trail is over because is the sentence that's really the fun. I love the most beautiful and despise sadness as a fate. I lock in me monsters of the underworld and angels from the top of the heavens, letting them out to play when strength is nothing but an illusion.

I come back to an original, after empirical proof that there's nothing better. And because the meaning of one name has in a fantasy life, is "trés" valuable, because the name is the only definition you can really have in a virtual world full of questions and unanswered riddles.

So this is a welcome back speech to the ones who care and for those who don't, well "c'est la Vie"!

Is good to come back to the once grown routes.

John Scar Kramer of Lioncourt

I've been on fire when it comes to screw up. And today was no exception.

What pisses me off the most is i knew it would happen this way and i felt no strength nor will to try to change it.And now i feel like it had it coming..

Have you ever felt like this? Like giving Up?
Have you ever LET a bus run you over?




I'm my own worst enemy...
TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!

John will be back

The Mist

It is one of the best movies I've seen lately.
There are those horror movies who, put simply, just scare you... You know, loud noises, bloody people, etc. There are those with creatures so ugly and so unrealistic that it just takes all the fear away, because they are not believable enough.
This film has that: crazy creatures coming out of nowhere, ugly injuries, some scary moments (I jumped off my chair a couple of times), but it has something else. It has a whole different "theme" in which you see people's fears taking the best of them. You see how humans really are, when in danger, how their beliefs and their survival instinct can make them do unbelievable stuff.
Quoting:

Amanda Dunfrey: You don't have much faith in humanity, do you?
Dan Miller: None, whatsoever.
Amanda Dunfrey: I can't accept that. People are basically good; decent. My god, David, we're a civilized society.
David Drayton: Sure, as long as the machines are working and you can dial 911. But you take those things away, you throw people in the dark, you scare the shit out of them - no more rules.

In every way it's one of the most realistic portraits of fear I have seen in a movie. And although there are limits (which the end might have passed), you do some crazy shit when you're afraid.
The end is, to say the least, controversial. I admit it's completely out of character, completely unexpected from those people we've been getting to know the last 90 minutes. But it's beautiful! A twist in the plot that shocks you to the core, and gets out of the ordinary without being completely stupid. It is unrealistic: the army, the relative "easyness" of the killing, the timing... But that's the intention! And I love a movie where you can't tell what's coming. I love when it ends with you still thinking about it, still rationalizing it.

I went with little (plot-thickness-wise) expectations, and got out with enough to write a few lines of text, so it was good. I totally recommend!

LOve and sEX

"Love is the answer, but while you are waiting for the answer, sex raises some pretty good questions."

Condoms aren't completely safe.
[A friend of mine was wearing one and got hit by a bus]

Music for any bad day that may come

The MP3 Experiment!!

halloween

Trick or treat?

It is as simple as that, which would you choose?

The physics of my management classes

When one enters the area that is known has the Management Class, happens a strange thing.

Because as you enter a Management class, you are in fact transmuting yourself to another dimension, where time passes slower and you age quicker. In fact there's a "completely independent" study that shows what I could be doing If I didn't go to management classes.

Has it is shown here:

 

Coluna1	•          What you do if you went to class	•          What you would be doing if you didn't go to class
Before entering management class	•          Normal living	Normal living
Entering management class	Enter and sit	Doesn't enter
5min. into class	•          Sit in the chair look to the board and do nothing	•          Grab your things and direct yourself to somewhere else
10min. into class	•          think about sleeping	•          go to UN and resolve every world conflict, and bring peace to the world.
X min. into class (time stops) no referential time measuring system is available	•          Sleep for what feels to be two hours, wake up to witness the class is still going on and that in reality only 2 seconds have passed, redoing until end of class	•          Become rich after writing a sensational economic novel, marry a beautiful muse, have lots of kids, become prime-minister and bring happiness and fortune to the whole country, retire and discover the fountain of youth
At the end of the class	•          Go Home and complain about the shitty day you've just had	•          Go Home and complain about the shitty day you've just had

 

Experts concur that the uselessness of management classes brings my IQ down by 20 points for the next two days.

I can't escape now but if you're getting any idea of going to management….

DON'T!!!!!!!!!! Save Yourself!!!