Perfect timing...
I want, for a long time now, to write about love...
I am a believer that there is no such a thing.
Love has been invented by humans, just like most things...
Jack told be, a long long time ago, that love was the feeling of liking someone very much. Guess what, liking someone very much is exactly liking someone very much. Biologically, there is no relation between animals beside basic ones...Therefore, i believe in SEX, just as much i believe in attraction, desire... But LOVE???...Give me a break...A big one, please!!
Love is.....utopic!! You can think about it, define it, paint it, even dream about it, but it is never going to happen..not for real...maybe after life there's something like it...
However, i don't like to be called septic so i have someone to tell to those (stupid innocent naive people) who believe in it, and say they have actually been there.There is not worthy of your time to trust someone blindly enough to give them the power to heart you...Pain is real, and the emptiness you feel when he/she betray you is real...and betrayal is real and certain...and disappointments as well..Don't be a victim...Be in control of you life....Fuck people around and DO NOT DARE TO "FELL IN LOVE" with them...You're in controle...You ROCK....
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I must say I´m very sorry for you. Yes, disappointment and pain are fucking real. And that´s good! Like Tina said what´s the use of a heart that can´t be broken?!
When you LOVE someone (and I have no doubt it exists, sorry you didn´t feel it yet) and you loose him/her it´s like your world is ruined forever. The pain is excruciating, it breaks you in half. But what you feel before makes that worth it. I´m really, really sorry you haven´t felt like that. Someday you will, and then we can talk about this subject again. Cause right now it just seems like you have no clue about what you are talking about.
Live it, feel it, suffer from it and then write about it.
I'll tell you a story that really happened to me and maybe it will open your eyes for a new point of view and understanding of this topic that in fact reflects "Life" itself...
Back to when I was a little boy, all my thoughts were about "why is it worth living" and "love only happens to naive people that cannot accept the inevitable fate", I wasted most of my time thinking "what the hell makes people live until they die of old age?"... at this point I was an introverted person, didn't play a lot like the other guys, went to lonely places, banged my head against a stone wall trying to get the truth out and locked myself in a world that I was trying to understand... the worst part was when I got tired of thinking, tired of been confused and misguided, tired of my life... then I went to the worst scenario, that you might think that it isn't but it really is, the easy way out, the relive.. suicide.
At this point I took a look at the world the surrounded me just to see if I was certain of my final decision. 5 months passed... it's hard to make this decision, in fact, if you have a decent and conscious brain, it's impossible to get a final answer, and that kept me out of sleep.
Now comes the part that you only see in movies and that you may not
believe... I fell in "love" for the first time. Yeah, I thought that "love" wasn't real, yet, has the books, people, and blogs try to explain, you really know it when it strikes you.
I'll try to describe the best I can so that you can tell me if you ever felt it (this might be very similar to others descriptions): when I first saw her my body reacted has if it was death itself again (cold sweat, rapid heart beat...) but there was one thing different in it, I was not scared like before, this time I wanted to be part of it, I wanted to get closer and touch, winter now seemed like summer, I felt warm inside... lol there, I tried to describe it the best I can, but this is really indescribable, then I got the real description, it's was a reason to live for.
Back then I didn't knew what sex was, but now that I know, I can say that they are totally different feelings, and one thing is certain, love most of the times it's not forever, because I felt sexually attracted, and in love many times...
Back to my younger life, after a few weeks of "total obsession" I had my first disappointment. It hurts, but like I said before, that feeling was a reason for me to stay in this materialist world full of corruption, just to seek and catch that feeling again.
Love is an human creation: nah, "love" it's the simple word to describe the indescribable, that, nowadays, is been falling in overuse taking the word "love" to a meaningless end. Has for me "love" it's my current breathing machine.
Why shall i love someone when it will bring pain?
Not quite easy to answer, but the answer is the same for the question "why shall we live in pain?" has for me, pain makes me feel human, alive and some sort of relief (not the emo kind of relief when they cut their wrists) for knowing that theres more than a body here (I'm not religious kind of guy, but i believe on feelings that we cannot explain because are somewhere in our huge and mystical brain), I'll call it superior unconscious. But it's important not to forget that "love" tends to bring more happiness than pain.
For these reasons i think that "love" it's a feeling that all should feel before make such judgments.
Ps.: Hey, I'm Calvin btw, I wrote this because I've been reading some of your posts and I identify myself with them, some i overpassed, others I'm living right now. And I don't think "love" is my only reason that keeps me alive, but it sure is important. I'm proud of myself for thinking before acting now, because now I've discover so many other things that are important and now I wonder "how could I've been so blind?", guess it's just a stage of life... the "why/how/what?" questions.
Ps.2: This is just my opinion... not based in books, documentaries or others opinion. Don't know if you identify with some of my living if that's so then i can make myself useful and help you out ;)
Welcome, Calvin! ;)
May you always be this right in all your posts in here.
I do believe you, Calvin. Every single word. I wish I was as wise as you are. You are kind of the person who I want to be. I´ll try to get there, that´s for sure ;) Thank you so much for sharing. I believe all of us have to learn from you.
WHo are You Calvin? And Wheres Hobbes?
"Os deuses gregos estavam entediados então criaram os humanos. Mas ainda assim continuaram entediados então criaram o amor. Como já não estavam entediados resolveram experimentá-lo e então criaram o riso para poderem sobreviver a ele."
Este é o mês mais romântico do ano, segundo dizem. Não tarda as lojas vão-se encher de corações e valentins que disparam setas ao desbarato.
Acho que cada vez mais as pessoas temem e evitam o amor. Dá trabalho e consome muito tempo. Já para não falar que causa das dores mais insuportáveis que alguém pode suportar. Tudo em nome de alguns momentos felizes e da construção de uma ilusão que nos deixa como que drogados.
"O que será então o amor?
Uma partida da natureza para trazer ao mundo mais bebés chorões ou tudo a que a vida se resume? A única coisa que dá sentido a este sonho de doidos?" Feast of love
Prefiro acreditar que é a segunda hipótese e espero nunca mudar de ideias, por muitos desgostos que venha a ter, acrescidos a todos os que já tive. Que a coragem não me falte para continuar a conseguir amar, ainda que o coração já tenha mazelas... É a droga mais poderosa que conheço. Também nos leva às nuvens e quando o efeito passa faz-nos estatelar com violência no chão. Mas continuamos a procurar aquela sensação... Aquele sorriso de orelha a orelha, os olhos brilhantes, quase dementes, o coração a pular sempre que se vê o objecto de amor, os tremores e os arrepios. E até a cegueira... Cegueira essa que nos faz não ver mais nada à frente, e muito menos para os lados; que nos faz só ver as coisas boas no outro e ignorar as más, mesmo quando estas estão escarrapachadas à frente do nosso nariz. Enfim, por aqui me fico que o sonho já vai alto.
Desculpem ser em português desta vez mas o intervalo do estudo tá a acabar e demoraria o dobro a traduzir p inglês!!!
Desejo o mesmo mal para todos, e o mesmo para mim: que a seta do valentim nos atinja em cheio!! lol
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